Tuesday, August 30, 2011

4 Months by Brittney Turner




4 months ago

I did what every teenager likes to do. I had “ fun”

I hung out went to clubs and drank myself nearly to death.

I had my share of fun, and I had my ups and downs

And there were times when I stayed down. Felt like there was no hope for me. Looked all around and found no one.

4 months ago

I was broken

I was this depressed little girl, that had not a care in the world.

And carried the world on my shoulders.

4 months ago

I was just a regular teenager

That struggled with Depression and a bit of suicide

Yep that was my life. Full of pain and strife

Tear after tear, and night after night.

That was I! I had even found alcohol to cure my pain.

What every person does that struggles with depression.

I had a regular session and afterwards I would drink and drink.

Hoping my pain would sink. Trying to Drown my hurt.

So I didn’t have to feel it. But to my surprise it stopped for that moment.

And I was okay, until the next day. until I got the instant replays of my previous days.

4 months ago

I was a wreck an emotional wreck, a train wreck.

A statistic nothing seemed realistic to me.

I didn’t want to exist I just wanted to quit.

4 months ago

I had nothing. I had nobody

But can I tell you that somebody

Came and grabbed a hold of me.

And loved me. For me!

Accepted me for me, saw beyond my problems.

And looked pass my mistakes and never judged me.

Can I tell you that God .

Took me from a dark place

And brought me to a better place.

A place of peace!

Let me tell you about my breakthrough!

When I didn’t know what I was going to do.

When I didn’t know where to turn Or where to run.

He showed up when I was going thru.

He held my hand. He became my right hand man

My best friend,

My beginning, and the end

My night and day,

My comforter, my healer

My heart, my mind, and my soul



Can I tell you that I am here today I’m still standing I survived

Heartache and pain, and that He can take anybody from a bad situation and use them. No matter who you are or what you are going thru. He will use you.

Visit Brittney at:

Her Blog Page: http://testimonyofaghettochild.blogspot

Her Youtube: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rapXgUE3wlo